First post, announcement inside!
I have wanted to start a blog for years. There are many things that I want to do. Why don't I do them you might be thinking?
Fear.
Fear is what holds many of us back from living into our potential. It stops us from stepping up to meet our lives. There are so many quotes about fear that resonate with me, one of the most well known ones is from Marianne Williamson,
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?"
For as long as I can remember I have wanted to help people. I have had a very loose idea of what that looked like my whole life. I thought for years I wanted to be a lawyer, I was argumentative and outspoken so I figured that was a great foundation based on the little information I knew about lawyers as a child. I took my first pre-law type class in high school and realized that was a nope for me. As I went through my early adult years I kept coming back to counseling. I had been in and out of therapy my entire life, and had been greatly impacted by the amazing school counselors and mental health professionals that I had encountered. I was raised in a dysfunctional family dynamic of addiction, anger, codependency, avoidance, passive aggression, yelling and silence. I would accompany my mother in and out of the rooms of AA when I was a teenager, this is where I found an understanding of addiction, I realized that I was not alone and found community. I attended school to be a substance abuse counselor after my son was born. I was 22 and thought I had found the path I wanted to take. My schooling road from there is all over the place, with the common thread of coming back to helping people. I thought about nursing for a bit, massage therapist maybe, occupational therapy sounded intriguing, I switched to human services pre-social work for awhile. Then I found yoga. I had heard of yoga before of course, it had been suggested to me many times over the years. I was a very angry person. Not just quick to anger but I truly enjoyed being angry, I enjoyed being righteous, I enjoyed the rush, I enjoyed yelling. It was all I knew. I tried yoga few times, I didn't like how slow it was. I did not know how to be with myself therefor it was the yoga that i disliked for being so boring. A friend of mine took me to a Y12SR, Yoga of 12 Step Recovery, class and that was it for me. I felt at home. I wasn't sure of what was about to happen in my life but I felt on the verge of a major shift. Not long after I started a yoga practice my step-father passed away, and later that same year my mother passed away.
Fear.
Fear is what holds many of us back from living into our potential. It stops us from stepping up to meet our lives. There are so many quotes about fear that resonate with me, one of the most well known ones is from Marianne Williamson,
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?"
For as long as I can remember I have wanted to help people. I have had a very loose idea of what that looked like my whole life. I thought for years I wanted to be a lawyer, I was argumentative and outspoken so I figured that was a great foundation based on the little information I knew about lawyers as a child. I took my first pre-law type class in high school and realized that was a nope for me. As I went through my early adult years I kept coming back to counseling. I had been in and out of therapy my entire life, and had been greatly impacted by the amazing school counselors and mental health professionals that I had encountered. I was raised in a dysfunctional family dynamic of addiction, anger, codependency, avoidance, passive aggression, yelling and silence. I would accompany my mother in and out of the rooms of AA when I was a teenager, this is where I found an understanding of addiction, I realized that I was not alone and found community. I attended school to be a substance abuse counselor after my son was born. I was 22 and thought I had found the path I wanted to take. My schooling road from there is all over the place, with the common thread of coming back to helping people. I thought about nursing for a bit, massage therapist maybe, occupational therapy sounded intriguing, I switched to human services pre-social work for awhile. Then I found yoga. I had heard of yoga before of course, it had been suggested to me many times over the years. I was a very angry person. Not just quick to anger but I truly enjoyed being angry, I enjoyed being righteous, I enjoyed the rush, I enjoyed yelling. It was all I knew. I tried yoga few times, I didn't like how slow it was. I did not know how to be with myself therefor it was the yoga that i disliked for being so boring. A friend of mine took me to a Y12SR, Yoga of 12 Step Recovery, class and that was it for me. I felt at home. I wasn't sure of what was about to happen in my life but I felt on the verge of a major shift. Not long after I started a yoga practice my step-father passed away, and later that same year my mother passed away.
If it had not been for my practice I have no fucking clue how I would have made it through, how I would continue to show up every day.
I have since become a 200 hour certified yoga instructor, yoga for all certified, a Y12SR leader and accessible yoga certified. I have done deep work around my own belief systems and continue to challenge my patterns everyday. As time goes by I have found that I truly love holding space for others, helping them step into themselves and guiding them during the process. Over the years I keep coming back to life coaching, and I have finally decided to allow myself to open up to that role. I have been through my share of mental breakdowns, I have cried into the floor of my bathroom many times, I have had moments of intense emotion and others wishing I could just feel something. I have learned invaluable lessons, insights, perspectives and coping skills that worked for me. I wish to extend everything I have to share with you, I offer a nonjudgmental ear, a shoulder, a space for you. I desire to be with you to aid in gaining clarity for your goals, help you realize and step into your gifts, guide you using your breath and bringing you home to your body with , to meet you where you are and be with you there. If this sounds like something you would like to talk more about, please reach out to me at yoga.riot@outlook.com
I look forward to working with you and holding a space for you to breathe ❤️
I have since become a 200 hour certified yoga instructor, yoga for all certified, a Y12SR leader and accessible yoga certified. I have done deep work around my own belief systems and continue to challenge my patterns everyday. As time goes by I have found that I truly love holding space for others, helping them step into themselves and guiding them during the process. Over the years I keep coming back to life coaching, and I have finally decided to allow myself to open up to that role. I have been through my share of mental breakdowns, I have cried into the floor of my bathroom many times, I have had moments of intense emotion and others wishing I could just feel something. I have learned invaluable lessons, insights, perspectives and coping skills that worked for me. I wish to extend everything I have to share with you, I offer a nonjudgmental ear, a shoulder, a space for you. I desire to be with you to aid in gaining clarity for your goals, help you realize and step into your gifts, guide you using your breath and bringing you home to your body with , to meet you where you are and be with you there. If this sounds like something you would like to talk more about, please reach out to me at yoga.riot@outlook.com
I look forward to working with you and holding a space for you to breathe ❤️
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